I just needed to tell someone.Hi, Grifball/Roosterteeth people. I have been absent as of late. That probably won't be changing anytime soon. I don't really think I am writing this for any particular reason.I need to say some things. I NEED to tell someone. I have no one that I can talk to right now about this. So I think that I got my girlfriend pregnant. I mean I don't even know how I let it happen. For the last month or so we have been doing that every time that we see each other so much that we both know we shouldn't be doing it so much but end up anyway. Well, this time she made sure that I noticed that she was not being adamant about me wearing a condom. She never TOLD me to not use one but I could tell that she didn't want to. I didn't want to. I knew I should. I didn't. . . . "We probably shouldn't have done that." That was yesterday. Today we decided to get the Plan B pill. Now neither of us are Pro- or Anti- abortion, but the thought of actually killing something to make up for your mistake kind of eats away at you. I still don't know how I feel. Also, her bone structure makes it improbable that things will go smoothly. So there is that. We haven't decided whether or not she should take it. I mean obviously we are both young adults with little money and don't really have any way to raise a child and I am almost positively going to tell her to potentially give the child up for adoption. If she gets pregnant her parents WILL NOT let me see her like ever if I even live. Why do people always victimize the girl in this situation. It is both of our responsibilities and we both made a mistake. This is as emotionally strenuous for me as it is for her. Any decent guy would be in my position right now. He would support her and understand that this is his responsibility as well. If her parents don't let me talk to her I honestly have no clue what I would do. I love her. My best friend had a crush on her. A serious one. I kinda-sorta stole her from him. Well, at least it feels that way to me. I feel terrible about it. I am always so damn awkward around them both. It has been quite a while and still I am uneasy around both of them. I have to tell him. I just . . . can't. I can't tell anyone from my family. They would kill me. I have no one I can talk to about this at all except for her. But when you are talking to the person that you may potentially share one of the biggest mistakes of your life with it doesn't tend to make things better. I just needed to let this out. Sorry guys. |
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