VentilationWell, if it works out then I shouldn't have to worry about journals posting via twitter, facebook, etc. Turns out this morning reminded me all too much about what I was going to vent about earlier. Simply put, I have roughly six months left in Korea, then I move from here to my next duty station. Here's the ringer - this move will determine my relationship status.Now I realize I do 'somewhat' have a say on where I get stationed next, depending on what's open when it's around time for me to get my orders. While roughly %65 of me would like to get back to Germany so that I can be with Nina, I can't help but feel the other %35 that wants me to go back stateside somewhat rising. I honestly can't make heads or tails of it. And one of the worst feelings is, "Well it's ultimately your choice, you do what makes you happy, but if you choose to go home then I want to know whether or not to return your anniversary gift..." Well, trying to explain that either option will neither make me completely happy didn't exactly go over so well, and for now yes I am pulling towards getting back to Germany, with the feeling in my gut that should I get stationed there, that it'll be long enough to get ready for a deployment, which really wouldn't phase me too much, but if all this hypothetically did happen I smell a deja vu argument creeping back up. Now granted I could also get deployed from the states just as easily, but I realized weighing pros and cons just isn't as easy as 'just weighing pros and cons'. Relationship aside (risky statement, I know), going back stateside would also be a breath of fresh American air (with a hint of freedom on the side). The opportunities for seeing family, friends, conventions, RvBTO, SWSX, Blizzc.. oh sorry, anyways, those opportunities would widen. I'd have the motivation to search for more than just a hooptie (me with an actual car? scary, yes.. but I really want a grasshopper VW or something similar in looks hehe). Of course, to sum it up... life's short. Either option will have its ups and downs, and ultimately it isn't my decision. Thankfully Xbox live is available worldwide, and global communications keep getting easier. While I'm extremely happy with my relationship, I also have to be realistic and remind myself that Dante's Inferno, FFXIII, and hell... even Bioshock 2 will always be there to pick me up should the skies turn cloudy and grey...  RobertPS: While I'm 99% sure I detached my journal connections w/twitter,facebook, and myspace... I still can't help wondering how much more hell I'd get in if it were to slip on there lulz... Edit: Watching the Devil Wears Nada episode of Simpsons... OMG, I feel Homer's pain on this one... so fitting haha |
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