Five years have passedSince I first joined this site.....It's hard to think that it has been that long; and to look backwards, I realize I have changed a lot over the course of time. Five years ago, I was a naive, full of energy, and idealistic teenager who thought he was important because he had a lot of friends. Five years ago, I looked up to my older brother sometimes and said, hey maybe he's right about this, every now and then; yeah, we may fight each other, but he's my brother. Five years ago, I though death would never happened to those too young or had yet to live their life. I thought that the sky was the limit and that life was a roller coaster with many ups and downs. I didn't care whether or not I had a girl since most people considered me to be like a brother to them.Time changes, and so do people for better or worse. Today, I've known myself to be quite cynical, tired, and overall more thoughtful when it comes to who can consider a friend. Compared to what I'd do five years ago, I honestly don't give a rat's ass about what my brother tries to give to me as advice when he's already throwing his own life down the drain already; Yeah I love him as my brother, but screw him if he decides to continue living his life, partying all night long. Nowadays, I know my limits as to what I can and can't do; I just choose to ignore them. I've learned that life is tough, for some, a lot more than others. Unlike my teenage life.....I honestly wish to God on High...that there was a girl out there who could cherish me for who I am, and not just use me as the go to guy for when she want's someone nice to talk to. Welp, here's to another five more years of life...and then some |
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